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Two Faced

 Ryan,

I'm writing to you because I don't have Sandy's address & she won't talk to me anyway. I don't know what happened while I was there w/ you two, but it felt like you both didn't really want me there. Maybe not so much you, but I knew Sandy had a problem w/ me, though she couldn't tell me, she had to be two faced. I had thought her & I were past her hatred of me but was proved wrong. I called her to talk to her about this & she wouldn't at first, until I told her how I felt she didn't want me there. I know you feel torn & maybe don't know who to believe. I'm tired of caring who you believe anyway. I know I'm a better person than to do that to anyone. For the umpteenth time I didn't do a damn thing to Sandy's car. I can't worry about that anymore. It was hard to deal w/ when I was there. It's unnecessary drama, but I guess it will never end. Ryan I hope you know I'm not a 'lying little bitch', which is what her room mate who doesn't know me called me. But there's nothing I can do if you sees me that way too. So this is what it comes down to: Ryan I still consider you a good friend & I'd like to be able to talk this out w/ Sandy but I don't think it's going to happen. So you can write if you want, I just wanted to get my feelings out there because this is beginning to feel like a one sided attack against me. Well, there it is, take from it what you will. I'm just tired of this fight, I didn't want to make Sandy mad when I called. But I also need to move on & worry more about myself. I wasted too much time worrying about other people & now I'm in a place where I can work on me. I wish you the best & would like to keep in touch. Also I'm proud of you for sticking w/ school.

Your pal,

Amy

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