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Never You

If you are no longer yourself, You were never you. If it is now a lie, Then it was never true. If you were right just once, You've failed perfection. If you held back your tears, You've overcome rejection. If you threw the first punch, You caused the fight. If you slept before dawn, Then you missed the night. If you hate to dress up, You will never be formal. But if you just be yourself, You will always be normal. R.R. 

Greatest Trial

Dear Ryan, Thank you for your letter. It was helpful to know how you really feel. I feel the same way for you, too, but right now I'm going through the greatest trial of my life, and I'm not so sure you're ready to see who I am today. I really do love you, though. Always remember that. Please write back if you want to.  Love Always & Forever, Rita Rosalita Bisbee

Too Much At Stake

 5-6-98 Dear Ryan, Hey hon! How are you? Good it sounds like. Things are good and bad here. It seems like everything in the past week has been a 'gain something - lose something.' I got my new apartment. It's really cool. I love it. I'm not completely moved in yet, but I'll get there. On the bad part of my week, I found out Wednesday that the girl I was best friends with where I grew up was killed in a car accident. Ryan, it hurt so bad. I couldn't stop crying for 4 days! I couldn't sleep because every time I closed my eyes, I would see her. All I can think about are the things we used to do. Some were every day routines, others are special memories I'll always cherish. The thing that hurts the most is that I have nothing tangible to remember her by. God it hurts. I never thought I would have to face the death of a close friend like that. We're all so young and alive. Goes to show what alcohol can do. You don't even have to be wild for it to happ...

Sleep Tonight

Dear Ryan, Hey there! How are ya? Missing me in misery? Good! That's what I like to hear. How's everything going? I just barely got off the phone with you, and I'm already missing you. Pretty pathetic, huh? I know you're in the same boat. Gosh, this is such a good movie, I can never see it enough. Val Kilmer! Hotty. Not as much as you, though. Well, I'm really tired. I will sleep tonight with thoughts of you. I Love You! Sweetie. Love Always Rita Rosalita

BEHAVE!

Dear Ryan, Hi there! How are ya? Good I hope. I'm doing much better. How's school? I'm starting to have a bit of a social life again. Kyle came over last night and we watched movies. I'm supposed to go out with him, Kaye and Robert tomorrow. I don't know what to think about him. He's a really cool guy, but I just want to be alone for a while. I dunno, maybe I need to go on. But what if I don't? We'll see. So, ya been staying out of trouble? I hope so. Guess what?! Do you remember Jason, Dan and Karen from Pahaska? They're coming back this summer. I got a letter from Jason in the mail the other day. I'm way excited to see them all again.  Well, I'm all out of words. Say hi to everyone for me, and BEHAVE! Take care!! Rita Bisbee

Other Opportunities

Dear Ryan, Hey hon! How are ya? Well I'm o-kay- Sorry it's taken me so long to write you. You're sending your letters to my old address, and it takes weeks for me to get them. So here's my new one: Rita Bisbee 1529 Draw Street Cody WY, 82414 About your dreams. Just tell me about them. I'm sure it's not as bad as it seems. And Homecoming. I'll try to make it, but I can't promise. You might have to go for some of your "other opportunities." You see, I just started this new job, and I have to fill in all the missing shifts. So my schedule is not always a set thing, but I'll see what I can do, and then I'll get back with you. Well, it's SUPER late & I have TONS of homework begging for my attention. So, write me back & tell everyone I said "Hi!" I love you. Love Always. Rita Rosalita P.S. If you see Nathan, could you please give him my address. Thanx. Love you! Rita

Sweet Summer Skies

My Dear Diane, There was a young, tender time under sweet summer skies where we would dance barefoot in the grass and engage in ancient dialogue. We'd gather around, all in a room and tighten our belts, we'd slow down and rest without guilt. We would act and lie without fear in a world of Shakespeare. We would stay and respond, expand, include, allow and forgive, and live in a safe world of make believe. We'd evolve, enjoy, inquire, discern, accept, admit, divulge, speak out and reach out. It was our utopia, our imaginary ideal, our nirvana, our ultimate. We'd open our arms and jump, propelled by our passions, amused and charmed by our differences. We'd be gentle and make space for every emotion. We would breathe and be charmed and amused by language. We would heal and be humbled, hold close and let go and know when to do which. And we all only knew of these things because of you. You'll never know how you changed my world, one Shakespearian Summer at a time. Yo...

Waiting For Us

Katie,  I hope you realize that I would have created a perfect world of love. A world where you and I would have loved each other perfectly. But this wicked world got in the way and destroyed all that. But still, that perfect world is somewhere, somewhere waiting for us. Ryan

Vicky Hates Me

Dear Ryan, Hey! How are you? I'm o-kay- But could really do without the pile of homework waiting for me in my book bag. College is a lot different than high school. I really hated the first week, but now that I know a ton of people it's starting to be fun.  Bod Coe came to talk with me on my last night of work and asked me if I would travel with him and the managers to Denver after Christmas to help them buy the new stock for next year. I was so excited. Anne came up to see me and asked me to help her with inventory this winter. Vicky hates me so bad. But I deserve all of this. I worked my butt off to move up. Also, I got you that 'Mountain Dude' shirt you wanted. I'll bring it with me when I come up for Homecoming. Also, Beth is coming with me to Homecoming in Riverton. She needs a date for the dance, so please find one. You don't have to if you don't want to, but please do. Well, I don't know what more to say. Tell everyone I said hi! Love Always, Rita

I GRADUATED!!!

Dear Ryan, Hey honey! How've you been? I've been o-kay- I'm planning a trip to Riverton to see you on June 20th, let me know if that's o-kay- I sure hope so 'cause I've already taken the time off work. The 20th is a Friday, and I'll be able to stay through Sunday the 22nd. I have to go back to work at 8:00 am on the 23rd, so that's the longest I'll be able to stay, but I'll plan to make another trip in July. I'll need a place to stay for Friday & Saturday night. I'll be able to pay a little bit, but I'll need some prices to make sure I have enough cash. I'm bringing my brothers with me, but I'm dropping them off in Shoshoni at Ross's girlfriends house, and I'll pick them up on my way back to Cody. So let me know if all that is o-kay- 'cause it will probably be the only chance I get until sometime in July or August. Oh, guess what I did last weekend? Guess, Yep! I GRADUATED!!!! It's about time. too. I was go...

As Far As I Can

Dear Ryan, Hey there sexy! How've you been? I've been o-kay- kind of. A little depressed here and there, but I'll get through it. It's just that there's no one here I can talk to that understands. It sucks. Sometimes I just want to throw everything away, and run as far as I can, but my problems will just follow me.  I'm sorry, I should be talking about something happier. So how's life going for ya? Good I hope. I miss you so much and think about you ALL the time. I watched the video of our Homecoming dance my mother made. You looked so GOOD! Of course, you always do. So I don't know what more to say. Write me back soon! Please. I'm dying to hear from you! Love Always, XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO Rita Rosalita XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO Sorry So Sloppy! I love you!!

Here And There

Dear Ryan, Hey hon! How've you been? I've been ok. So, what do you think of my art? Wild. Sorry I haven't written in such a long time. I've been so busy. I'm putting in a lot of overtime at work. It sucks, but I need the cash. I've also been dancing quite a bit. I have a guy partner now. His name is Dustin. He's pretty cool. We haven't got into any of the really difficult stunts yet, but there's progress every day. The dance class I'm teaching is doing well, also. It's growing so fast. If too many people keep coming in I'm going to have to charge them! I'm also performing my music a bit. Here and there I find people who want to hear something new and relaxing. It's good for me to have an audience. Anyway, not much else is happening. I get my new hearing aids in a week and a half. So I might be able to hear. (Yeah right!) We'll see. I miss you lots & hope to "hear" from you soon! I love you! Love Always, Rita Rosa...

You 'Appear' To Be Normal

Dear Ryan, Your letters always bring me much joy. They're so full of passion. I know what you mean by falling in love all over again. I feel it, too.  If you want to know what you did to catch my eye, I'll tell you. You talked to me, and listened to me. You didn't see me as just an object you could show off to your friends. I've always been treated like a possession, but you were different. You showed me I was human. Not just something on display. I realized my feelings counted the same as anyone else's. That feels so good to finally know. You cared for and loved me more than any guy who's been in my life. I am in love with your smile, your touch, and the way you can always brighten my day, whether you're right beside me or 200 miles away. You put words together like an art. You always know the right things to say. You've touched my heart in a way no one else has. Your love is something I consider valuable, and not to be taken for granted. Even though we...