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You 'Appear' To Be Normal

Dear Ryan,

Your letters always bring me much joy. They're so full of passion. I know what you mean by falling in love all over again. I feel it, too. If you want to know what you did to catch my eye, I'll tell you. You talked to me, and listened to me. You didn't see me as just an object you could show off to your friends. I've always been treated like a possession, but you were different. You showed me I was human. Not just something on display. I realized my feelings counted the same as anyone else's. That feels so good to finally know. You cared for and loved me more than any guy who's been in my life. I am in love with your smile, your touch, and the way you can always brighten my day, whether you're right beside me or 200 miles away. You put words together like an art. You always know the right things to say. You've touched my heart in a way no one else has. Your love is something I consider valuable, and not to be taken for granted. Even though we're apart, I can feel your love. I know it's that strong. It's a bond, a trust, and a treasure I was lucky to find. Ryan, there are so many things about you that drive my heart wild. The list never ends. I love you, now and forever.

I'm working on improving my health. I only have to gain 7% more in body fat to be in normal range. It could take a while, though. I don't want to gain weight in the process. So give me time. I'll get through this eventually. Just so you know, I do take those crappy little vitamins everyday!

I'm really glad to hear you went to church and enjoyed it. A testimony is something that is unique and different in every person. No one can ever take it away from you. I went through a really rough time when I didn't think I had a testimony. I know now that I've always had one, I just needed to strengthen it. Let it grow and learn. It's something I can turn to when my life starts falling apart. God is very loving towards us and our needs. He will open his heart if we but only take the time to hear his teachings, and that's how we can expand and strengthen our testimonies. Prayer is always strong. I find myself falling to my knees more now than in my past.
Before I go really deep into that I'll hafta stop. I'm sorry, I get kind of carried away sometimes. It's just that I have so much faith in the church. I know it's true with no doubt.

About Beth. She doesn't hate you. If it makes you feel any better, she said the exact same thing to Scott. Except I think she was a lot meaner with Scott than she was with you. Honest. She lectured him for like an hour. So she doesn't hate you. She's just a psycho little ewok that needs to chill out. There's also other stuff going on with her. She started smoking pot. She hasn't really changed yet, and I hope she gets out before she gets in too deep. I think she will. I pray for her. Please don't tell a soul. No one! I trust that secret with you! Beth would be so mad if she knew I told anyone. So please. 

Anywayz. There's not much going on. Nancy I guess doesn't want to talk to me. Tell her I'm very sorry for Beth and Tobbie's behaviors. They can be real bitches to people sometimes. Just let her know that neither you or me had anything to do with that phone call. I don't mind if you two are friends. Actually, I think it's great. Friends are something no one gets enough of. Don't let a stupid prank Beth and Tobbie played ruin a good friendship. And if either one of them call Nancy again, and I hear about it, I'll beat them senseless. - kay -

I love you very much, and think of you all the time. Especially when every time I step in the door at work I hear about you! By the way, my boss approves of you, and he told my other boss that you "appear" to be normal. So, Bravo Ryan!
Well, I better get. Love you lots and lots!

Love Always,

Rita Rosalita

P.S. I'm not nappy! I don't care what the foul lady, Katie, says. STUPID COW!

Tell the family I said "Hi!"

I love you-I love you-I love you-I love you-I love you-I love you-I love you-I love you-I love you-I love you-I love you-I love you-

can you tell?

OBSESSED A LITTLE MUCH?   YEP!!

CAN I KEEP YOU?

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