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Our Friendship

 Ryan,

I know you think I'm smothering. The last thing you want right now is to see me, let alone get a letter from me. I want you to know I never meant to hurt you. I never meant to hurt anyone. I'll admit I ask too much from you, it is too much to ask you to listen to me when you have other things to think about, it is very selfish of me. I hope I haven't asked for too many chances at reconciliation. I have known you for many years now & the friendship we have means so much just because it has lasted this long. It is because I think of you as such a good friend that I'd hate for it, our friendship, to be over. I'm not asking for sympathy or asking for anything in this letter, because I know I've asked too much from you as it is. I just want you to know I've been wrong, I really do see that & that things can be different. Also, honestly I'm tired of the he said she said bull. So having said that you can take what you want from this. I don't want you in any other way than a friend. I don't even look at you in that way anymore. Our friendship, I think is important, & I don't want there to be weirdness or creepiness because you think I want more than friendship. I'm not wrong in saying it's too valuable to ruin w/ other feelings. Honestly, you mean so much to me, as Matt, Josh & Nicky. That says a lot because I know for certain they are my real friends who have put up w/ all the stuff I make you go through & we came out of it still friends. I know our friendship is on rocky ground right now & that I need to work on things in my own head (which I'm doing). Still I hope we can come out of it friends. Ryan, even if we never talk again I want you to know that as long as I live I'll always be there for you whenever you need someone.

Luv always, 

Amy :)-

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