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The New Me

 June 2, 1998

Alright, if you are now reading this it is because I consider you to have been a large part of my life for the past year or more. All I want to say is thank you to those of you who have given me the new look on life that I am now taking. I know that I have done many things in the past. I'm not sure how long that I have hurt you all very deeply. That is why with this letter comes a new me, and a new look on life.

Before I leave I want to say a few things that people have told me in the past few months that I found today. First off I found a letter that had never been opened over at the other house. Its contents were amazing, and I would like to share them with you.

"It's just crazy, the way life goes. It's some psycho plan of an insane man, a twisted joke that few find humorous. It's just too weird. Sometimes life is a round room with no gravity and nothing to hold on to, where we just fly out of control and laugh away. And sometimes life is a free fall, with so much direction there is no choice, no way to slow down. You can never tell how close the ground is. And sometimes life is a straight line so stable but always on the move. You can always see ahead whether you care or not about what's coming. Life can only be one thing."

I also found a card that I received last January:

Be mature enough to realize you still have a lot to learn.

Be wise enough to know respect is something you earn.

Be patient with your parents, with yourself and others too.

Be the best that you can be and life will give it's best to you.

In conclusion I want to thank God for giving me a second chance at life and letting me wait so long to decide to start. I was told I am the kind of person that one would not soon forget. Please remember the good things of the old me and let me introduce the new.

Sincerely and with love,

                    Jillian A. Maulik

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