All Their Words

Hey Ryan! I haven't seen you around lately, and I miss you. You always brought such love and light with you. And I miss that. Bring that back sometime. Write me back, when you come back around.  Jonah

HI! What's wrong with you? It seemed like you were mad Saturday. Sorry I was acting so stuck up Saturday, but I didn't feel good. I was sick Sunday. But enuf about that. So you been busy lately? I have. I'm not going out with you cause you're fine. I'm going out with you cause you're a sweetheart and I'm happy when I'm with you. I really love you and I wouldn't dump you for anything in the world! I wish I could see you more often. You're probably getting sick of me writing so I'll wait for awhile before I write you again. -k- BYE! I Love You! Erin

To: Ry-Ry From: Amous Ryan, I'm writing one last time before I leave. Thank you for being a good friend, it has really meant a lot to me. Thank you for still being my friend even when I know I've made it hard. I really never meant to do anything to hurt you or make you mad, and I know I have. It means a lot that you continued to be my friend after these times. You will always be in my memories and, as you wrote on the back of your Senior picture you gave me so long ago, I'll be around if you ever need me. I'll be a phone call away, and between friends, that's not that far. I wish you the best, all the happiness life has to offer. Remember, you are loved, you are a good person, please remember that and don't close your heart to being loved. Well, I think I've gotten deep and sappy enough. It's not like we'll never see each other again, right?! Your friend always, Amy :)' P.S. Someday hopefully I'll find second. Ha Ha!

All I want is to love you, for the rest of my life... To wake up every morning with you by my side, Knowing that no matter what happens, I'll be able to come home to your loving arms. All I want is to share everything with you... To talk to you about our ideas, our dreams, The little everyday things, That make us laugh, And the not so little things, That we can't help worrying about. All I want is to give you my love... As a place you can always come to, For acceptance, Or the simple comfort that silence brings, When things left unspoken,  Can still be understood. All I want is to grow old with you... To watch our life unfold, Our dreams,  One by one, Come true. All I want is to love you forever.

6/26/01 Ryan, Just a note to say I love you, miss you and think of you often. Keep your head up and call me whenever you need someone to talk to. Love Always, Rita

It's been five years since I forgave you for ripping my heart out. Some wounds never heal. You carry my heart still, in your back pocket, unaware that as long as it's still there it keeps me from moving on. And since my heart has been taken, it leads to my breaking a heart or two along the way. It's too late to wish for a second chance, I know this. But hell can still hope, I suppose.

In the beginning, you loved me. Then, after your persistence, I finally loved you. You played your cards and won my love. And I, believing you loved me, loved you. It took you two years to realize you really didn't love me, all the time I was falling even more in love with you.

Ryan, Of all the things that I still have to say to you, even after all this time, the first thing that comes to mind is, I love you. I know I may never see you again, but just knowing that I saw you every day for two years should be enough. I'll keep you inside me. Your smiles, your seductive glares, your sleepy eyes and messed hair. 

Dear Ryan, Hey honey! How's it going? A little better here, I guess. Well, I do have an answer to the question you asked me. ~ Okay ~ The reason I am with you is because I've been looking for someone like you forever. You're everything I want. You're not like all the other guys I've been with. You don't treat me like a piece of meat. You like me for my personality, and not the way me or my body looks. Every, well, almost every, guy I've gone out with, their basic journey was to get me in the sack with them. You're not like that. You treat me human, and I like that. You make me feel so special. It's like when I'm around you, no one else exists. Pretty deep, huh? Well, I don't know what more to say. Work is going so much better. I get along with everyone, and the waitresses compliment me constantly on what a hard worker I am. It's really cool. I've met a ton of people. It's so cool. I have friends! Oh-my-gosh! Wow! NE-way. Hannah an...

Rita, I can't keep this inside anymore. I just can't, I've got to tell you how I feel about you. I've felt love before, but nothing quite like this. So don't mind if I try to avoid you, because this is very complicated. After I tell you this I'm going to need some time to myself. You may not feel the same and I perfectly understand. I fell in love with you at the dance. That other girl I was talking about, was you. Yes, and you are partly the reason I broke up with Erin. I've thought about this long and hard and concluded that I truly do love you. Every poem I wrote was direct to you. I wanted to tell you face to face, but every chance I had, I just couldn't. Every poem you've wrote to me I've cherished and I'll keep them for as long as I shall live. I hope that my deep love for you doesn't ruin our relationship we've built. If it does, it won't be the first time. Please take these words to heart. I'll think about you every mo...

April 24, 1997 Ryan,  Hey! Whatz up? Not much here. I'm just peachy as always. Just hangin' in health talking about sexual crap. Oh joy! That really did surprise me when you called last night. I'm glad you did, even though we didn't get to really talk. I'm sorry I am so confusing all the time. I kept thinking about how you sounded so lost. Well, at least until I said all that crap about how much I care about you. Then your voice got all, I don't know, it just got different. I just want to know what you're thinking, that's all. I just wish you could tell me how you're thinking, how you feel. Just the truth, that's all I'm asking for. Please write me back. It would mean a lot to me. Love,  Jill

Time goes by, and still, there's only you. People come and people go, but you'll always exist to me, As my one and only true friend. Even though we weren't strong enough to support each other, And our all too consuming passion. I still long to be by your side. I need you, I miss you, I think of you constantly. And knowing you no longer need me, Doesn't change how I feel for you. You could rip me apart,  And break my heart. But the last beat of my heart, Will always belong to you. 

Hey Rita, Haven't heard from you in a long time, how come? I am so damn lonely without you by my side, sweetie! I'm dying without you. I'm yearning to see you again, even if just for a moment. I'm forgetting how it feels to look at you, see you smile, listen to you laugh. God, Rita, I NEED YOU! Who can I hold, who can I caress, who can I desire more than life?! You. I thought it would take my whole life to find the perfect girl. Nope. I've stopped searching, I've found you. I know you write, but Rita, it's just not enough. I've never given up hope that you will return. I know you will, cause I've got strong faith that I'm the only one you love, right?! Hope so. I heard about your Grandpa. I'm really sorry. I know you didn't like him that much, but when they're gone you realize you should have loved them more. I know, I've been there before. How are your parents doing? How about school? You still not going? I respect that you don...

Hey Erin, Don't take it personal or nothing, but I really don't want anything to do with you, because I don't want to get any more involved with you than I already am. Because I really can't accept the fact that we aren't together, and if we can't be together, we might as well not be any more involved. So, this doesn't change the way I feel about you, but it's just too hard to even write you, let alone see you. It just confuses me emotionally. So, hey, don't get too upset, just act as if we hadn't even met. Another reason I'm avoiding you is because Rita asked me to, and I'm gonna respect her requests. I'm just writing to you to let you know that I won't receive any more letters from you, so don't write, ok. Consider everything from here on out between us - nothing, because that's what it's gonna be. Please don't cry, because I'm hurting more than you. Ryan Jevne Bye, Forever

I haven't heard your voice for years, but I can still hear its' sweet, soft sound in my mind. The gentle way you said my name, when I was on the edge of sleep as you tried to wake me. I haven't felt your sweet, loving touch for years, but I can still feel your soft, tender hands on my chest and cheeks. The gentle way you fondled me on summer evenings when time had no hold on me. I haven't felt your presence beside me for years, but I can still feel how you felt, there with me, in your sincere and serene style. The way you were so unassuming and authentic, unabashed and unafraid. Your presence still haunts me, in all the sweetest ways.

I hate how you won't talk to me. I hate how you go on with your life pretending I don't exist. I hate how I lied to you. I hate how you broke my heart. I hate how I broke yours. I hate how we were never enough for each other. I hate how every day I don't see you seems like it will never end. I hate waking up alone. I hate feeling that I'm all to blame. But I don't hate you. I hate how when every blue Sable drives by, I turn my head. I hate how everyone with blue eyes reminds me of you. I hate how I fiddle my ring when I think of you. I hate how I can't go five minutes without thinking of you. I hate how the smell of french toast and cigarettes remind me of you. I hate how I can't make one single commitment to anyone or anything. I hate thinking of tomorrow. I hate uncertainty. I hate going to Wal-Mart without you. I hate watching movies without you. I hate doing dishes because of you. I hate doing laundry and not mixing it with yours. I hate watching the sta...

4/27/98 Rita,  Here's another letter that may never get to you. But it helps me to write them, it gives me something to do. Life here is the usual. Went to church yesterday, because my mom threatened to make my life miserable if I didn't. And I don't doubt that she could. She's gotten mean lately. She lectures me every time I turn around. Telling me things I've been told a hundred times, like it's gonna make any difference if I hear it one more time. I went to sacrament meeting and the pianist started playing 'Love At Home' and I broke down. I had to walk out, I didn't go back in there. Don't ask me why. I just didn't, it hit me hard. I had an appointment with a cardiologist today. I didn't go. See, my hearts been hurting a lot lately. I try to keep it to myself. I say one thing to my mom and she freaks. It's not a problem really, I'm just growing. I think it's because my ribs are moving back into place. So, how's life on ...

Dear Rita, There will never be another like you. There will never be another like me. There will never be any others like we. I hope you haven't given up on me. I won't turn my back on you, please don't turn yours on me. I'll be waiting here forever for you. Just tell me what I need to do. To be in your arms again, to feel whole again. I miss you. Say you miss me too. I love you. Say you love me, too. Ryan

Dearest Rita, How's life? How's band? How's Cody? And most of all, how are you? I had the best dream last night. I was at school, during lunch, and you were there. I couldn't see your face, but I felt your presence. I was there with you holding your hand, just sitting there with you. When I woke up, I had an emptiness in me that hasn't left yet, and it's tearing me apart. I feel as if I've left a part of me in the dream, and only you can replace it. Nothing and no one is more dear to my heart as you are. If you're still wondering about Erin and I, well, I broke it off for you. I wrote her a letter and explained to her that everything that was between us would be nothing from here on out, so, don't worry, she has no part in my life, I promise. Well, the reason I didn't write last week was really pretty simple. I was in an accident. Two Saturday's ago, Venessa, Nick, Lydel, Celeste and I went out to eat at JB's. I was riding in the back of ...

Ok, this is what I've been thinking and so worried about. How do you know if you're in love with someone or not? And how do you tell them? I guess you just feel it. The way they make you feel when you're around them. If you truly love this person, and you care about her, then just tell her. Most likely she'll feel the same way back. If she doesn't then at least you'll know for sure. So you really think she'll feel the same? You don't know her like I do. How do you think I should tell her? I mean, if I was gonna tell you, not that I would, I loved you, how would you want me to tell you?? If she loves you, she'll understand. If you were to tell me, I'd want you to just come out an say it. I guess the question's not how, it's when? And only you can decide that.

Dear Mr. Most, Despite all the chaos we've created in each other's lives, you'll always be the man I'll love the most. The man who gave me the most, the man that loved me the most. The most man I've ever had. Seems almost a joke to say it at this point, but there it is. You're the most! The end. Ryan

Ryan I said buy me a sucker! I'm sorry, if I had money I would, believe me. I'm just as hungry as you. Where did you go for lunch today? Just jokin'. I went to this lady's house. We go there to talk sometimes just to waste time. 

 ~ Ryan ~ Wake me up when you get home. Thanx. Love Always XOXOXOXOXO Rita P.S. The house looks GOOD!  :) Thank you!

Rita, It's almost midnight. I couldn't sleep. I can't stop thinking about you, not that I want to. Part of me does. Forgetting about you is impossible. I'm sending a tape with this letter that has a song that comes the closest to expressing how I feel. I miss you, I miss us. I've changed so much, and I hate it. Sometimes I remember what's happened, what I've done, but more than anything, or anyone, it comes back to you. Why? I wish I knew. It's all crazy how things work out. I keep trying to make sense of everything, why I ever fell in love with you, why we fell in love, why? I looked forward to so much, to so many things, to being with someone who would always be there, someone I could love no matter what else happened. But everything happens for a reason. Rita, I don't want to move on without you, it all seems so pointless and scary. For so long I centered my life around my feelings for you, and now that doesn't mean much at all. Memories, hold...

Ryan, Sexy Butt Thank you for that beautiful letter. I needed it. Those are the things I needed to hear from you. Sometimes I don't know how you really feel, and it scares me. Thank you. You're my sweet dreams. Love Always, XOXOXOXOXOXO Rita

May 9, 2000 ❤️ to the love of my life: ❤️  ❤️ Before I slip away to slumber I want you to know how much I love you. ❤️ I will dream beautiful fantasies of you. ❤️ In your arms of sweet bliss.  ❤️ I love you. ❤️  *KNOW THIS...* Now...           And...                    Forever!!! Love Always, Rita

Do you hear the whispers Do you hear the night Do you hear the harmonies Sing with such delight. Do you hear the sweet, Tenderness of love. Do you hear the hours of The dancing stars above. Do you hear the heart Of every kiss you get Do you hear the laughter Of every goal we've met I Love You! Rita

I.O.U. - Ryan L. Jevne owes the temptress 'Kinki' for one strip dance. - Must pay back! X___________     SIGN HERE

~ Ryan ~ Came home for lunch at 7:00. You were asleep. See you tonight. Love Always, Rita

Rita, Kelle & I went to the PARK - Be back in a while.  LOVE RYAN

 7-1-00 Dear Ryan, Well. I think we can put my first house party down as a success! Everyone left at 1:00 AM, and totally sober. Patricia wanted to take your 'Wizard of Oz' poster, and I told her to take it, but she felt guilty. I told her that was good 'cause I'd be living in my car if she did! Well, I miss ya, and I'm thinking about you a lot. Hope work's going well. I love you! Love Always Rita Rosalita

June 22, 2000 Dear Ryan, I just had to let you know how desperately I'm in love with you. I think about you all the time, and can't wait to have time with you again. It's been awhile since I've left you a note letting you know I'm thinking of you. So here it is! I LOVE YOU! NOW....              AND....                          FOREVER! Love Always, Rita

Rita, This name doesn't give you enough glory. You're too beautiful, smart, sexy, romantic and fun for a name like that, but hey I love your name. Rita, that name won't ever mean the same to me. Rita Rita Rita. I could write it time and time again. Come back Rita, come back. I miss you so much. But you've got to promise to write me, ya already have, I know, but promise again, just so I know you won't forget to. If you were here with me I'd make love to you for hours, forever and ever. We could dance together, talk together, laugh together and love together. I had so many things to say to you while you were here, but hey, you make me feel so inferior, almost anything I say to you comes out goofy, so that's why I write almost everything down. I'm dying for a letter from you, with your very own handwriting, kissed by your very own lips, please, write back soon. I know now what they meant when they said, 'you never know how much you love someone until th...

Rita, I'm sorry I upset you, but believe me, it hurt me more to say it than for you to hear it. God I'm sorry. Please forgive me. I guess when a guy upsets the girl, the guy's got to be the first to say I'm SORRY. If it hurt you to say it, then why did you say it? You asked me to. And it's hard to say no to you, and if I hadn't of told you, you would've got mad too. I don't know what to do. If you didn't want to say it, you shouldn't have. I would've rather be concerned if you didn't say it than be pissed 'cause you did say it. Well then, if you won't accept my apology I won't fight it. I'll just cause more problems if I say any more, but I'm sure this won't hurt. I love you. I love you, too!

June 27, 2000 Dear Ryan, ❤️  How's my sexybutt?! Just a little note to tell you how desperately and madly in love I am with you. This time away from you drives me crazy. It makes me look forward to the weekend. Our sweet little daughter is sure full of something tonight. She's so silly. I can't believe she's getting so old. Next thing you know she'll be driving, graduating, and having a family of her own. I don't know what more to say. I love you, and miss you LOTS! Love Always & Forever RITA

My Dearest, Sweet & Loving Husband, I just want you to know how very much I love you. You are everything to me, and you always will be. I love you. Now, and Forever! Love Always, Rita (your wonderful wife)

7/22/99 My Dearest Husband I don't tell you often enough how madly and deeply I am in love with you. You are everything to me. I appreciate all you've done for me, and all you've given me. I love you so much & I want you to know that I always will. I L-O-V-E love you all of the T-I-M-E time. Love Always & Forever Your Loving Wife

Ryan, I'm at my parents house doing laundry. Come down. We can all watch a movie or something. I love you, and miss you. I had a crummy day at work and want to quit. My mom thinks you need to come give me some lovin' and calm me down. Well, I'll see you later. I Love You! Love Always & Forever Rita

~ Ryan ~ Don't forget to drop the checkbook & your check by Arby's so I can put it in the bank. I'll see you tonight. I Love You with all my Heart! Rita Jevne

Ryan, I've had the pleasure of sharing my time with you, on and off the stage. You are a unique and rare man. There were never any walls of defense with you, Ryan. No hesitation at all. Everything I wanted to be, you were, as an actor and as a man. You were wild and free, fully present and without fear, vulnerable and open in expression. An example of frail masculinity, sensitive and furtive as a tender kitten. A soft beast and a doll, all wrapped up in a beautiful package. I've fallen in love with you, but I won't pursue you, unless you ask me to.  I'll always be waiting in the wings, whether in this lifetime or the next. Jonah

Ryan my Love Today My Dearest, of you I thought. So this little gift I did bought! A pretty box, just for you! (And if you're lucky there's still a chocolate or two!!)

To My Handsome Honey! Thank you so much for the Birthday gift! I've never had anybody spoil me like you do! I had a wonderful Birthday and am so glad I was spending it with you! I love you with all my heart! I am grateful for every minute I have with you! You can make the worst days seem brighter!  I LOVE YOU! XOXOXO Katie

MR. JEVNE hey Good Lookin! Come find me if you are wantin to hang out. I am @ my house, or call Amara's phone - 851-6128 you are great! ❤️  Me! to

hey Sexy! Come see me for lunch and bring anything you'd like! wink wink I love you lots more than I show! XO - Katie

I LOVE YOU my Ryan! XOXOXO

Ryan - I want to make dinner for you at 8:00 tonight. If you can't or don't want to call me at work ASAP. Have a great day, sorry I missed you. luv - Katie Krammer

Mr. Ryan Jevne, I apologize for the inconvenience of my cancellation. I would like to move the event to this Saturday the Eleventh of November, Two-Thousand and Five. If you would still like to attend please RSVP so that I can make the arrangements and let everyone else know. Also, I was planning on serving dinner so if there is anything you are allergic to or just plain don't like, let me know so that I can make something all will enjoy. Thank you and I hope to see you soon. Miss Katie Krammer 851-2781

Ryan - hi! I am at work right now, it has been pretty slow all day. I hope your day with your friends has been fun. I just wanted to let you know what a good guy you are. You have helped me in so many ways. I know I am not an easy girlfriend to have and get along with. So thanks. Thanks for putting up with my crap. More than anything I admire you. I look up to the way you are so clean and organized. You are thoughtful and kind to those who need you, even when they are not your most favorite people. I love the way you treat your mother and look up to her. Few men give their mother's the respect they deserve. You are an amazing man. Just thought I'd tell you. - Katie

Ry-Ry! You can come get food we have extra! You can take it and eat it by yourself if you want, but we have lots. luff' ya! hope you feel better. - kt bug

Hi Honey! I went out for some breakfast & stuff.  Call me when you wake up!   ❤️  - you!

JUST THOUGHT I'D SAY HELLO! HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD WEEKEND. I MIGHT STOP BY SAT. NIGHT IF I DON'T GET BACK TOO LATE! AND SEE IF YOU WANT TO COME BY FOR A BIT SUNDAY! I LUFF YOU! XO - KATIE BUG

My Dearest, Sweetest, Adoring Husband - Ryan, My love. I miss you, too. I can't wait to see you tonight. I'm feeling pretty lucky & I'm sure that I'll be naked, eventually, too, after I get home. I Love You TONS!! Your beautiful, but humble wife. Rita

Ryan - Sweetie Pie - I guess my grandma did come down and she's staying with us tonight. The house is kind of a disaster so I was hoping after the reception you & I could come down and do a quick over on the place. I miss you, and wish you were here. Also, I told Katy I would try to go ahead and cover my shifts this weekend. Love Always & Forever, Rita - Your Loving Wife

My Dearest, Sweet, & Adoring Husband. I'm sorry I won't be here for your break. I have missed you in absolute misery. All day. I'm at my parents house for a while. First I'm going to shop for groceries.  I LOVE YOU. See you tonight You Loving Wife, Mrs. Rita Jevne Miss Me!

The black is for our hardships and trials. The red is for our triumphs and successions. And the heart is the love that became of them. Ryan I love you Now,          And                 Forever... Rita Rosalie Bisbee

 Dear Ryan, Hey there sweetie! How are you? How's your Friday the 13th? Exciting? I'll bet! Well, I thought a lot about what you said about the gospel and how you thought you could never love anything more until you met me. I think you should focus on your appreciation and belief in the gospel more than the love. Don't get me wrong. Love for the gospel is important, but it's not all there is. Also, I can't help but to think that you've given up on prayer, too. I hope you haven't. When you're having doubts that is the first place you should turn. I'm not trying to lecture you, Ryan. I'm just worried about you. I want you to be happy, but don't ignore that still small voice inside of you. Sometimes it may be all you have in your greatest time of need. Blah, blah, blah... I know that's what you're thinking. Well, just so you know, I CARE! My health is improving, I went to the store today and bought groceries, so I was able to see the out...

Dear Ryan, Hey hon! How are ya? I'm o-kay- But could always be better. College is pretty cool. The environment is a lot more relaxed than high school. I absolutely hate my classes, but the instructors are really neat. So much has happened since you left. You know that older guy, Dan, that worked at the gas station? Well he became totally obsessed with me, and wouldn't leave me alone. I finally bought a can of mace, and Bob had to sit him down and have a talk with him.

Dear Ryan, Hey, howz it going? Good I hope. I'm doing o-kay- I just had a crazy night. A friend of mine that I grew up with moved to Cody and we got together to catch up. I haven't seen her since the seventh grade. I started asking about everyone, and of course I asked about my old best friend. She looked at me funny and said, "You didn't know?" Nothing ever prepares you for those words. Ryan, it's horrible. She died our junior year. No one told me. The worst is finding out the way she died. In a car accident with another girl I knew. It hurts. I never got to say goodbye. She used to see me after I moved, but we lost touch after I moved to Riverton. It just makes me ill. We were so close for so long.

Dear Ryan, Hey hon. How are ya? I'm doing o-kay- School's o-kay-, but is starting to really aggravate me! I'm really sorry, but I can't make it to homecoming. I promised a ton of people I'd cover their shifts this week, and I didn't know it was homecoming week for you. I promise I'll make it up to you somehow. Otherwise what's going on in Riverton? How's school? Did ya get a car yet? Well, let me know when your next play is, and I'll do my best to show up for it. I work so much it's hard to find the time off for anything. But I'll try. So drop me a line or two and let me know how things are. I love you! Love Always, Rita Rosalita

Ryan, hey there little guy! Just dropped a note to say hi! HI! Call me sometime. ~kay~ My number is 856-2483. I get home around 6:00 or 6:30. Rita Rosalita

Ryan,  Honestly, I'm not sure. I'm not. I just have this burning need to get to know you better. I want to get married, etc, down the line. Sure. But I've wanted that for a long time. You just seemed, so sweet. And funny. It's just so hard to explain, Ryan. I'm just feeling that growlly feeling I get when I think about you. I don't know if this will work, but I am more seriously interested in seeing if it will work with you than anyone else I've ever met. I'm not trying to freak you out. But, unless you want to say that you're not a kind, sweet, funny, passionate person, then you can't help a guy for noticing!  Tristan 

Ryan, You may think that you're all that and a bag of chips! But let me tell you something... You're all that with a fucking cherry on top!! Even if there's a side of bullshit there, too... I love you! Jay

Ryan, Even though you're far away, you're in my thoughts every single day. All the passion I saw in your eyes, the way you held me under the star lit skies. As the hues set in and said their prayers, I was next to you, and in your cares. I heard your heart say those sweet words that comfort me every time they are heard. And in my soul, I know it is true, when I say that I will always love you.  Love, Always & Forever Rosalie Lane

just sayin' Thanks! To my Ry-Ry Luv! Love ~ Katie K. XOXO

12-25-07 Merry Christmas! I love you so much, and I love the thought that I am your wife, so often I can hardly believe it! Thank you for all that you do for me! Your patience and love means more than you could possibly know! You are my own little miracle! I LOVE YOU! XOXO  your little wife

Have you found second yet? No, but I found a great friend. Who could have thought? All these years later we'd still be friends. That we would see each other again, after being parted for two years. Heartache, I know you came back with. We both know pain as well as anyone. Now we can help each other. Now we make each other strong. Strong to face the future. Friends like you are rare. As rare as true love can be. I can't thank you enough, for all the times, you were a listening ear, or a shoulder to cry on. You hold a special place in my heart. That can never be replaced. Remember always I love you.

Ryan, Hey, howz it goin? Howz it feel to be out of school? If you're wondering how I got your address, Nikky gave it to me, I hope you don't mind. You know the last time I saw you was graduation. Well, I did go to that dinner theater at the career center but didn't see you because it was the late show. My summers been busy. It started w/ the week I spent in Mexico (remember). Then I had to go to Denver to see doctors about my diabetes. Guess what? In Mexico we got paired up w/ another group from Minnesota & met a good looking & nice guy named Kris & got his address. Also, did I say I was moving, if I did, I'm not anymore. Well, I have to go, please write back ASAP, I want to know what's new w/ you. Your friend Amy

Ryan, I just wanted to say that I still want u to be happy. You really did hurt me, but I have made peace w/ it and forgive you & myself. I read these five rules to happiness somewhere and maybe you'll think it's dumb or won't read them, but I'd like you to know them. Rule 1: Free your heart from hatred Rule 2: Free your mind from worry Rule 3: Live simply Rule 4: Give more Rule 5: Expect less Amy :) P.S. Ryan, best wishes and good luck

Ryan, Happy Birthday My wish for you is to enjoy life. Live it to the fullest & remember people love you. Luv always, Amy 

Ryan, Thank you for all of your support and love these last couple of years. You've given me more than I could ever ask for. I love you. Now & Forever Rita Rosalita Bisbee

August 21, 1997 Dear Ryan, I wanted you to know that I love you very much. I will never be able to tell you this enough. I cherish the moments that we share together with all my heart and soul, and always will. You know you are everything to me. And I could never see the two of us apart. I live my life for you. Thank you so much for coming to Pahaska and spending your summer with me. I love you. Rita

Ryan, Please write me soon. My new address is: Rita Bisbee Box 15 West Trapper Village Powell, WY 82435 I don't want to lose you. I broke it off with Scott tonight. Don't worry. It went well. The feeling was pretty much mutual. So, no harm done.  I love you, and really hope to hear from you soon. Even though we're not together, I still hold you close to my heart. Love Always, Rita Rosalita

Breaking up with you Was one of the hardest things I've had to do For I thought that I'd be with you Forever and true. But I knew that you weren't The one that I knew I knew that I couldn't Stay true to you. So I let you go then So you'd be happy now I'll always remember When you made me that vow. R.L.J.

I write these lines From the heart of mine To the heart of yours So abrupt and divine. Our invalid love Comes out from disguise And it shows to be clear As I look in your eyes. And it overcomes weak Brings out the strong And races on forever But forever's not that long. And I listen so closely To the words that you speak In love and in passion At the top of loves peak. No secret I share For none that I own And my forever love It's my heart you have sewn. For all that I hear I love you For all that I remember I love you And please always know I LOVE YOU. RR

A fantasy world My mind has become For I think more of you Than I think that of some. Am I alive Or locked in a strength An uncertain feeling A love without length. A distance so traveled A far off land And my heart gets so weak At the touch of your hand. And I'll always be free My fantasy true Forever in love With the only one, you. RR

That first glance It was then that I knew I hoped to be Forever with you. I listened with care At every word that you said And I knew life without you Would be lifeless and dead. The look in your eyes Gave feelings I can't explain And the romance alive Took over my domain. For I want to live My life full, and through And flower my heart to give unto you. So I solemnly vow My love will endure Unto you and your needs Forever, and pure. RR

Steven and Ryan are nice! :) Clara

Once in a lifetime... Ryan, someone like you comes along. Happy Valentine's Day I know everything has changed, but I want you to know I'm still thinking of you, and will NEVER forget you, or what we once shared. Take care. Love Always, Rita Rosalie

For You, Darling "Time will never change my love" "Love like this there never was before... Love like this will be forever more." I know that time can never change the love I have for you, except to make it deeper still with everything we do... In my dreams of coming years, you play the greatest part, for I know that time will never change the love within my heart. Happy Valentine's Day Hi My Love, Happy Valentine's Day to the hottest of hots. I really don't have too much to say, just that I love you so very deeply and want more than anything to see you again. With deepest emotions this Valentine's Day. Ryan Jevne P.S. The play (My Fair Lady) is the 21-24 Feb at 7:30, CWC. Come if at all possible, it would be all my pleasure.

Rita, a lot of people don't have the kind of relationship we do... those poor, unlucky, worthless losers! Not many people have the kind of relationship you and I do. I love you, always. Ryan

As I gaze up into the stars above, I wonder what's become of our love, Knowing what we had, Or what could've been, We live with our sorrow down within. As I look into a faraway land, I see you holding my hand, And the nights seemed so young, Back when we'd just begun, Makes you wonder what could have been. Makes you wonder what was there before, And why we love each other no more, Forgotten's in the past, Have gone away at last, With memories of what used to be. Now we've both ended up alone, Living with our sorrow not shown, Thinking about what was, And if we'll find new love, Trying to leave the past behind. Makes you wonder what was there before, And why we love each other no more, Forgotten's in the past, Have gone away at last, With memories of what used to be. So don't look, and it won't hurt. Hide your fears, and don't show your pain, That longing once before, Shall be with you no more, And your memories will cloud beneath your mind. Rita ...

To the only one you It's but my heart I shall give And forever on forward With you it shall live My love at this time Will finally reveal And from your head to your feet It will bow down and kneel This reason of love I do not know But from that first glance It started to show I no longer believe Of a passion in style And your undying love Is well worth my while I will try my best To bring you no pain To push away hurt And help my love gain And honest to truth With no trusting lies I'll live on forever Your love in my eyes RR

It's been so long Since I thought this reply If your love for me's strong Then I will not deny For my heart says the same And forever it shall Be real and not lame Or grow old and be stale Your voice I can hear For many long hours With you I feel near To that incredible power It is you I can trust Our hearts will be true For this feel is not lust I really do, love you, too

Ryan, hey you! Whatcha up to? So whatcha doin this weekend? Oh yeah! You're GROUNDED! ha ha! Just jokin. Call me sometime -k- 857-3175. Maybe we can go out and share a coke or somethin! Love Always, Rita Rosalita

Ryan, So, is that the only time you write me? When you're bored? Thanx! Just jokin. Well, all I can say is maybe the reason Erin is playing it so hard is because she's hurting too. She just doesn't want you to know. A broken heart can take a great time to heal, but it does happen. Trust me! It heals, and then you wonder why you ever hurt so much. But it's good that you hurt. Because it shows that you have feelings, and that you care. Ryan, you can't lock all your feelings up inside of you. If you do that, then you'll become a walking zombie! Ya know, I locked all that I ever felt up inside of me for a long time. I never let people close to me, cause I didn't know what they'd think of me because of all my confusing emotions. I built a brick wall around me, and because of it, I became a depressed person, and that is not what you want to have happen to you. Ya know. I brought all the feelings I felt out in my poems. I never used to let people read them. I w...

Ryan, hey! Well, I guess I'm free now! Thank God! If he didn't get the note, I'll tell him myself. It'll be hard, but I can do it. Anyway, thanks for the donut, you're a real sweetie. So, whatcha gonna do tonight? I have cheerleading. Oh fun! Well anyway. Did you enjoy your table top drinking? From now on I'll pour your Pepsi on the table, and you can just slurp it up!! Well, I guess. Call me tonight. okay. Bell's gonna ring, so I guess I better get! See ya. Rita Rosalita P.S. Sorry I didn't get the chance to write you 5th hour.

Ryan, hey there! So how's life going for ya? Okay here. Just sittin' here at my locker writing this note. Whoa! Guess what?! It's like 5th hour and I have sooo much homework. Well geez. Let's go!   RR SKIPPER

Dear Ryan,                                                                                                      12/01/2023 Difficult times are necessary for our learning and progression. I write in hopes of you hearing hard things. Life was not meant to be easy. We each are responsible for our own. The battles placed before us are given to challenge us so we may improve. But more importantly that we learn to rely upon the Lord for direction. He loves you. Your father and I love you. Tough love is necessary. It is tough to step aside and allow, allow you to experience what is necessary for your own growth. It may seem that we are retracting our hands, yes. But always the Savior, our Savior, never retracts his. My prayer is that you may o...

Dear Dad, I think you are my hero, because you help me and are very nice, you listen to me when I talk to you!

To: Noah from Valerie Marry Christmas Marry Christmas. I love you so much. thank you for being nice to me.

to: Santa from: Valerie ice cream slim kit cloths  joolory make up LoL Doll Doll cloths D.S. Games Legos Family to be happy Marry Christmas Santa

thanks! for letting me bum off of you when I was poor!  :)

You smell sexy XOX Ryan, Happy Valentine's Day! It has been a whirlwind romance and I love getting to know you! Stay sexy Tiger. (growl) Brian  

Ryan, I think of you everyday. I can't help it. I just want things back the way they were. But I can't do that knowing your heart is no longer mine. I doubt it ever was. It is now on the road to somewhere more divine. I hear sad songs on the radio and can't help but to cry. Every word, every phrase, reminds me of you. I see couples walking down the street, hand in hand, with love in their eyes. We were once like that. Where did we go wrong? Where was the error? I only wish things would've worked out. I remember once when you loved me unconditionally. I had no fault and our love was invincible. Indestructible. Yet somehow it was torn apart, and my heart was torn in two.  I, of course, overreacted. But I was caught by surprise. I was hurt, shocked, I felt invaded. A man I thought I knew came out from disguise. But no matter the road I take in life, I'll always remember the highway I shared with you. I'll remember the sleepy look in your eyes as you tried to hold b...

Ryan, My honey bunches of oats. I've been missing you in misery all day. Ross & Carrie gave me $10 of gas $. Tio needed TCBY. So here's what's left so you can get some dinner. I talked to Scott's dad again & he said that he went brain dead & they are shutting the machines down. Everyone's kind of down. Tio said thanks for the toy & "Bye-Bye." Love Always & Forever, Rita Jevne

Dear Ryan. Hey honey. I'm just sitting here waiting to go to work, thinking of you. I miss you so much. I wish you were here, but you will be soon enough. It's so beautiful up here. I know you would just love it. I think it's so great that we're both going to be working at Pahaska. I'm shocked too. Did you know you will be the youngest person to work here, ever?! But I'm glad you will be.  Well, I better get to work. Fun! I love you. Now and forever. Love Always, Rita Rosalita 

Rita, So I guess it's over. You've made it perfectly clear that you no longer want to love me, much less talk to me. There's nothing more for me to do but accept that. Even though I wish like hell we could start somewhere again, anywhere at all. That's impossible now, I know, but I still have a few things to say.  I will start by saying I love you still, I always will. I cannot stop loving you simply because you are not around. Tell me, was it easy for you, to stop loving me? I don't understand how you can be so cold and careless. I never meant to destroy the one thing that was supposed to last forever. Aren't we soul mates, aren't we supposed to be together forever? There's no one I wish to spend the rest of my life with but you. Even more, there's no one I want to love more than you. This is driving me crazy knowing you are no longer in my life. I have this sick pit in my stomach all the time. My heart is literally breaking, I can actually feel it,...